I am Yishun King! says: i tell u something truthfully can? *help冯腾辉--- Some wounds will not heal, like the ones on Joker's face... 28/138 says: ya? I am Yishun King! says: u look the most handsome when u dun touch me I am Yishun King! says: always *help冯腾辉--- Some wounds will not heal, like the ones on Joker's face... 28/138 says: -.- *help冯腾辉--- Some wounds will not heal, like the ones on Joker's face... 28/138 says: lame *help冯腾辉--- Some wounds will not heal, like the ones on Joker's face... 28/138 says: i know *help冯腾辉--- Some wounds will not heal, like the ones on Joker's face... 28/138 says: thats y i want give u chance to be more handsome than me I am Yishun King! says: -_-
LoL...
28/138
4weeks
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11:00 PM
Sick. Applied for early leave form. Why now? I'll be missing the Australian Mathematics Competition which I got a High Distinction for it last year. Missing it means I have to edit my SGC too.
28/138
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2:19 PM
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Recreated a new tagboard.
Less than 2 weeks to the start of Prelims. I'll have to start studying now.
27/138
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10:28 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
There's some problem with my tagboard. I can't see my tag. Argh!
26/138
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8:04 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
WHAT THE HELL?! PHYSICS ASP IS BROUGHT FORWARD TO TOMORROW, AND I HAVE SOMETHING ON!
My nose is preparing for the Olympics again. Needed so many packets of tissue paper again.
You made me find out so many things yesterday though I don't know if you did it intentionally or not. I finally understand the real you. Maybe I was just rejecting it all along, but it was clear by the words you used.
25/138
Maybe I shouldn't count the days anymore. It doesn't matter already.
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3:45 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
I teared for you today.
24/138
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9:41 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Spent another day in school. Played basketball during the detention.
"Menstual" cramp today while playing mahjong. Pain.
23/138
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11:54 PM
Friday, July 25, 2008
Stomachache. Planning to take early leave form but I didn't felt any pain during lessons, only during breaks. That's so weird, as I normally don't feel anything wrong during play time. Maybe it's a curse that I should study. Haha.
Joke of the day-- Haoguang: What's the meaning of sunrise industry? Mr Syn: Industries that are booming. The opposite of sunset lor.
Taken from Haoguang. Nice.
22/138
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10:59 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
It's been 3 weeks.
21/138
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10:15 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I've got a runny nose. A nose that runs for so many hours. Sure it has enough stamina to win the Olympics. Okay, lame. But I've used up 10 packets of tissue paper in school (school ends at 2.10pm) and it still hasn't stopped till now. My full toilet roll is going to be used up by my nose by the end of the day.
20/138
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5:41 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Finally watched "The Dark Knight" today. Joker was very good. Batman was damn pathetic. What a pity that Heath Ledger who acted as the Joker passed away of drug overdose. He's the best!
19/138
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8:31 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
Thinking ThinkingThinkingThinkingThinking. Still can't get over it, even if you think that I have.
18/138
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10:03 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Got a record of 4kills 6deaths in a 3v3 match.
17/138
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9:03 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Why can't I still get totally emotionless in front of you?
16/138
The number 16 again. Such a familiar number.
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12:32 AM
Friday, July 18, 2008
My parents went for the Parents Teachers Dialogue today. 1st we talked to ET. She said that my main problem was language, that's why I couldn't pass GP and Econs. She said my H2 subjects were quite ok, which I don't agree.
Next was Bernard Syn. He said I had improved, but time management and my concepts of the topics were the main problem. I spent the whole of the June holidays studying it, and I failed! But it was 91 percentile. Shocking.
Sim Peng Nam was the 3rd. I was absent for the start of their conversation as I was doing my duty as the Welfare Representative of 201. Lame. My parents told me that until I came, he was saying that I was 'gifted'? But I couldn't present my answer clearly and he said this would cost me a lot of marks as my method of solving questions were very unusual. Also, I don't fully use my potential, and that's considered as a pathetic waste of 'talent'. I need to do constant revision and PASS UP MY HOMEWORK.
The last teacher was Jimmy Goh. He said that he was disappointed in me.(I can see that too.) He told my parents that I was his 'A' student.(Is that real?) But I didn't study much as I only focussed on Econs.
Darius Oh was absent. Heard that his grandmother was in critical condition in the hospital and he was in the hospital.
Detention tommorrow!!!
15/138
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11:54 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
14/138
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10:59 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Finally played one game of DotA. I'm a noob shit. 0kills 1assist. Countless number of deaths.
13/138
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11:30 PM
Can't play DotA when I reinstalled yesterday as I found out that I had over-updated it. Still trying to be able to play.
Punished by ET today. Whole class together. Most of us skipped the health talk together. ET cried. Whole day in school on Saturday. This may be better for me as it may be the time for me to reflect and maybe start studying.
It's the 16th of the month. Sad.
13/138
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8:19 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
The fault lies in me again. Just wanted to talk longer, but I turned it into a big mess. I hurt you.
12/138
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6:21 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
Always think too high of myself. Always say things that could not be taken back easily. Always hurt close people around me. Always get left alone as a result.
Sorry
11/138
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7:43 PM
Happy Birthday Wei Jie. Went to Eatzi with WeiJie, HuiPing, David, Maria, ChunSiang, Lionel, ToolAnn and EngKiat. We only ate the Student Meals and look what David has on his table! Good job pal!It's WeiKuang da ge birthday too! Happy Birthday to you and your 2 triplet brothers!
11/138
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5:31 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
I understand now why some people choose to become monks and nuns, to attain enlightenment and isolate themselves from the rest of the world.
Does trying to be gay work? Maybe. To stop thinking about other stuffs. But how? Anyway the "gay" here refers to happy, not guys liking guys. Purge everything in the past out of my life. Become emotionless when I see you. That may help, but it doesn't guarantee that it'll work out fine.
I HATE LIARS. sorry
10/138
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3:30 PM
Sis found this at Daiso in VivoCity.
10/138
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12:05 AM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
I've been trying all sorts of methods to distract myself from this. Playing basketball seems to be the most effective way so far, while studying and lying on the bed seem to be the worst. Played basketball yesterday till 7.30pm and scolded by parents for not calling home to tell them. Legs cramped quite a number of times. But I couldn't stop playing, for if I had stopped, I would think about it again. Sad.
Thanks for those who talked to me last night trying to comfort me. A lot better but still not much better. What am I saying? I appreciate your efforts but I still couldn't get over it, or at least for the time being (At most? For my entire life?).
Why did you call? It's not your fault, don't feel guilty.
9/138
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7:54 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
Happy Birthday Lionel. Top in class in Econs right? Though it's a top failure. Every 201 people fails H1 Econs anyway.
Sometimes things don't turn out the way you want. You feel like avoiding the problem, but you can't help but keep thinking about it. It feels so terrible. Do you need a break? A break won't solve anything. It makes you think more, good and bad things. I just need someone to teach me how to stop thinking about this. Dead.
8/138
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10:31 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
If you hate me, please say out. It would just be better if you just tell me directly. It's good that you have friends you confide in. Carry on your life well. I feel like a pathetic idiotic stalker right now Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence.
-Aristotle
I'm not fit to be a human.
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10:09 PM
Happy birthday Dad, Mom and Sis!!! Today's their birthday! I'm supposed to have dinner with them so I didn't go for the Hellboy with my 201 pals. But I had fun after school as I found out something. Maybe it's been happening for quite long but I've just found out. Anyway, it's great to know about... ahem! :) Just dun :'( before the A's. You will not want to know how it feels.
I don't know why I'm still thinking about you now that it's been 1 week.
It's also been a week since I counted the number of days left to the end of the A's. 131 more to go. Don't know if I can survive for 131 more days.
7/138
想和你去吹吹风 by Jacky Cheung
想和你再去吹吹风虽然你是不同时空
还是可以迎著风随你说说心里的梦
感情浮浮沈沈世事颠颠倒倒
一颗心阴阴冷冷感动愈来愈少
繁华色彩光影谁不为它迷倒
笑眼内观看自己感觉有些寂寥
想起你爱恨早已不再萦绕那情份还有些味道
喜怒哀乐依然围绕能分享的人哪里去寻找
很想和你再去吹吹风去吹吹风
风会带走一切短暂的轻松
让我们像从前一样安安静静
什么都不必说你总是能懂
繁华色彩光影谁不为它迷倒 笑眼内观看自己感觉有些寂寥
想起你爱恨早已不再萦绕那情份还有些味道
喜怒哀乐依然围绕能分享的人哪里去寻找
很想和你再去吹吹风去吹吹风
风会带走一切短暂的轻松
让我们像从前一样安安静静
什么都不必说你总是能懂
很想和你再去吹吹风去吹吹风
风会带走一切短暂的轻松
让我们像从前一样安安静静
什么都不必说你总是能懂
想和你再去吹吹风虽然你是不同时空
还是可以迎著风随你说说心里的梦 的梦 吹吹风
不知道我们还能不能再去吹吹风
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5:10 PM
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Less that 3 hr for Sis to enjoy her teenage days. Haha! Almost a week since that day.
Normally this is the period when I'll get broke. I'll be treating them to dinner as usual for the past few years as I know that what they want, even they themselves cannot afford. Their greatest wish may also not be fulfilled though simple - that I'll study hard.
Enjoy ur remaining hours as a teenager, Sis! ^_^
132 more days to the end of A's!
New timetable! Latest at 2.40, earliest dismissal time is 12.10!
Sayonara wa Ashita no tame ni by Tackey & Tsubasa (Inuyasha song)
If there was just one, And no more than one wish that came true, I wonder what I would wish for...
Where are you now? Who are you with now? I secretly ask these gifts of the blue sky.
With you, so near at my side; But now, you're no longer here... With you, although we're apart, That won't change, in spite of the promise I made.
Though we'll become memories, It doesn't compare to the warmth of your side, A painful sigh suddenly overflowed, and will soar to a distant place to reach you.
In the times to come, I've already gone away, I've finally come to realize it means just that.
For me, I'd lost my way, You took my hand in yours. For me, in a smile, Your sad eyes were hidden.
Although we may become a farewell, I'd whispered that I wanted to be by your side, I can't voice my unforgiven memories, But at least this prayer will reach you.
My unending memories are released into the sky, Although I'm alone, I'll continue on...
It's as if the sakura flowers danced that day, Reflecting the light of radiant memories, And a painful sigh, bright with all these feelings, will soar to reach you.
Although we may become memories, It doesn't compare to the warmth of your side, But because farewells are for tomorrow's sake, they will soar to a distant place to to reach you.
Good for you if you achieve good results.
6/138
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7:26 PM
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
I realise that I'm completely different in school and at home. That's good.
I forgot to go for make-up P.E today. Totally forgotten about it until Mrs George specifically cane to 201 to scold those who didn't turn up. My excuse was that I thought today was Monday. I had more excuses, like being able to sleep at 3am thus have a failing memory. Lame! Anyway, why did we skip the P.E last Wednesday? Follow the leader. Follow the P.E rep! Haha! And that ****** did not dare to go to school last Friday. I bet that he's afraid. Haha! Anyway, off to P.E tomorrow! Everyone remember your thermometer!
I'm such a noob. After 2 years of "abstinence" Seoul Garden, I finally ate it yesterday with Aunts and Cousin. I didn't know that the table has 'evolved' to something like this. A bit difficult to grill the food though, but it sort of relieved the space constraint as there would not be a pot in front of you blocking the way.
I thought that I could enjoy this with you.
5/138
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9:55 PM
Monday, July 07, 2008
4/138
Youth Day holiday. No school means no sleeping during lectures and tutorials. It also means to stay at home to rot and think of irrelevant stuffs.
Trying to get out.
I understand that, it's just that I can't control myself.
Without You by Mariah Carey
No I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes
You always smile But in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I let you go
And now it's only fair That I should let you know What you should know
[Chorus:] I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore
Well I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes
You always smile But in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows
[Chorus]
I'll Be Waiting by Lenny Kravitz (L-Change the World song)
He broke your heart He took your soul You're hurt inside 'Cause there's a hole You need some time To be alone Then you will find What you've always known
I'm the one who really love ya, baby I've been knocking at your door
And as long as I'm living I'll be waiting As long as I'm breathing I'll be there Whenever you call me I'll be waiting Whenever you need me I'll be there
I've seen ya cry Into the night I feel your pain Can I make it right? I realize There's no end in sight Yet still I wait For you to see the light
I'm the one who really loves ya, baby I can't take it anymore
And as long as I'm living I'll be waiting As long as I'm breathing I'll be there Whenever you call me I'll be waiting Whenever you need me I'll be there
You are the only one I've ever known That makes me feel this way, couldn't on my own I wanna be with you until we're old You've got the love you need right in front of you, please come home
As long as I'm living I'll be waiting As long as I'm breathing I'll be there Whenever you call me I'll be waiting Whenever you need me I'll be there
As long as I'm living I'll be waiting As long as I'm breathing I'll be there Whenever you call me I'll be waiting Whenever you need me I'll be there
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11:27 AM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Day 3 of 138. 135 more to go. How can I survive the coming days, especially the October period?!
It's also been 3 days, since Dad had suffer that strain on his arms. Blood clotted inside the vessels of his shoulder, causing a big blueblack and his arms are weak to move. Hurts to see him like this! I mustn't be so disobedient anymore!
The date 3 days ago is such a fateful day.
My ulcer is finally out. -_-
ReInstalled all the games that I've uninstalled once. Indulging myself in these games is a good way to forget school work and other stuffs.
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10:42 PM
Saturday, July 05, 2008
No motivation to carry on. After all these injuries, after all these results, after all these devastating incidents.
Mathematics was 55, one of the few in the cohort to have passed. Just 55. Okay, never mind that. Physics, my best subject, I scored 60 marks. Only 60, when I thought I may get at least a high B, as I flunk the paper 2 question 9. Can't believe that my best subject became Chemistry this Block Test. Econs and GP are waiting around the corner, and I'm not surprise to fail those.
Why am I still smsing you when I asked you to stop?
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8:45 PM
Rejection song by Sakuragi Hanamichi (Slam Dunk)
甩甩甩， 被甩了。 寒风咆哮， 刺骨啊！
Shizukana Yoru Ni by Tanaka Rie (Lacus Clyne)
In this quiet night, I'm waiting for you During that time, your smile has faded away Now that a little time has passed, Fond memories start to resurface.
At the place where stars fall, I'm always wishing for your laughter. Even though we're apart now We can meet again, right?
From when has my smile faded this much Since it was shattered by one mistake Change only the precious things into light and Go beyond the sky with fortitude.
To the place where stars fall, I want my thoughts to reach you. I am always by your side Since I will embrace that coldness. Even though we're apart now, We will definitely be back together. In the quiet night...
Winter Love by Boa
As shining winter fairies come floating down I kissed your smiling picture because I had nothing else to do At that long line outside of the movies, we vowed To never stand in line here together again But since my heart is next to yours I still miss you even as a friend But I can't turn back ever again
I love you, I want to see you again With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace Baby, even if you forget me Is it okay for me to still love you? I'll never forget you
Since the moment that I was alone, I've realised what true loneliness is These overwhelming feelings in my heart that won't stop flowing out Now, the way to love a person Is so important that I think a person shouldn't forget it No matter how many times my address changes I'll never let go of that voice or that dream
Even if you love someone else as time flows by I'll still remember you Our destined meeting and the warmth we shared I'm glad that it was you, and I can say it from my heart Until we meet someday again
We can't stop the future from coming The feeling of sadness can quickly become forever Even if I get wounded when I'm happy When I've fallen in love with a someone
Just alive I love you, I want to see you again With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace Baby, even if you forget me Is it okay for me to still love you? I'll never forget you
Sen no Yoru wo Koete by AquaTimez (Bleach Movie - Memories of Nobody)
"I want you to love me, but I dont think you will." I wander around as I repeat this to myself It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt. I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Do you love me or not? I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know! No matter how badly I desire to be with you There are many unchangeable things in this world and my love for you can't be stopped by anyone
As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you I have to let you know "I want you to love me, but I don't think you will." I wander around as I repeat this to myself It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt. I'll say "I love you" to the one I love Putting these feelings into words is so scary but I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
The happiness we chance upon in our lives can't be expressed in words That's why we can only smile Why we sing "do re mi" among the vivid autumn colors With winter at our backs, and the spring sunbeams peeking through the leaves as to protect someone who's just been reborn
As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead, my eyes were filled with cowardice I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest I didn't want to know that you didn't love me and live the rest of my days alone That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt
As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you I have to let you know "I want you to love me, but I don't think you will." I wander around as I repeat this to myself It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt. I'll say "I love you" to the one I love Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love And that's the most beautiful thing in the world
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8:08 PM
I'm thinking too much.
Sorry for everything.
Thanks for the memories.
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4:38 PM
Injured when playing basketball. Ulcer will be growing soon.
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3:35 PM
Letting it go, with the promise that you made.
If promises are meant to be broken, should I still believe in it?
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12:49 PM
Friday, July 04, 2008
261. The number. I'll going to buy 4D once I turn 18, and I will buy 0261. I'll never forget this memorial number.
I had a dream yesterday. There was a thunderstorm in the ocean. I was on a little boat in the middle of that ocean. Just a little while ago, the sky was clear. A lightning struck onto my boat.(In a dream, you won't die even if the lightning strikes on you) I could swim, but where to? Drowning would be the best option, rather to be eaten by sharks or whales alive. Flashbacks appeared suddenly. My happy and sad moments resurfaced. I didn't want to drown. I didn't want to die. I had so many regrets. Is it the power of Fate? Should I die in that dream of mine?
I thought that my relationship with my best friend was as strong as an oak tree, not like those weak grass that don't even have any firmness while standing. Now the tree is torn apart, by some mighty wind that caused it to stand in the way. How I wished that our closeness is like those reeds, which bend to even the slightest wind. The grass is not at all damaged by that wind as the latter passed harmlessly over it.
You shouldn't keep giving me those false indications that hascaused me to become what I am now.
Do you agree that life would be better for you without knowing such a guy like me?
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7:02 PM
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Is there a medicine to boost one's decisiveness and make him a less annoying fellow? Stupidity is a sad case as it has no limits and also cannot be cured by medicine.
Once broken, considered sold. =(
I've a CJC comprehension paper. Is there a need to forget at times? My tick on this is "No". I'd rather let this pain kill me. "Jorge Luis Borges describes an individual who can forget nothing, and who is tortured by the burden of complete recall." Getting killed by this may be the best solution for me right now.
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8:29 PM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Misunderstanding?
Sorry.
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8:55 PM
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
I'm lazy. Just like those 2 in this video.
I can't live if fuel price goes so high that it'll end up like this.
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5:58 PM
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